給2012年的5句話

1. 再難也要堅持。
2. 再好也要淡泊。
3. 再差也要自信。
4. 再多也要珍惜。
5  再冷也要熱情。

加油，變成比昨天更好的自己！

Year end jitters

The last two weeks of 2011.  It’s scary how time flies.   

For some reasons, I’m actually feeling year end jitters.  Uneasy.  And I absolutely don’t like this feeling.  

It’s the feeling like you still have some unfinished business, yet you have no idea what it is… Or maybe you know, but you just are not brave enough to face it.  

A lot of things are running through my mind.  Stressed at work, stressed about mum, stressed about myself, and stressed about everything and anything.   

I think I’m getting neurotic.   

I get upset very easily, and even at the slightest thing and I tear so easily.   Though I have wanted to push the blame to “that time of the month”.    But I know it’s not.  

One bestie told me one night that I should start thinking more for myself, instead of letting all the 101 other things weigh me down that much.   She says that I worry and think too much for others, and maybe that’s why I am also starting to complain that my grey hairs are popping out.   

And guess what?  When we were about to part ways and she told me to remember to give her a call any day any time, when I just want to lash out, I just cried.  See?  That’s what I meant I’m getting neurotic.  

The jitters are really getting into me.  Such that there are days words just don’t come to me.  I can’t express myself properly and end up hemming and hawing – even when I’m with friends.  Blah…  

I really hope I will hear some good news this coming week.  At least, there will be some things off my cluttered mind.  And if it turns out good, I can welcome 2012 with gusto! 

Pray for me.  J 

Musings

I absolutely like this sucker.  =p

《撑着》

撑着
多心酸和沉重的字眼 。

问：最近 工作还好吗？

答：还过得去吧。吃不胖，饿不死，在撑着吧。。。

问：最近 你和他/她还好吧？

答：还好吧。。。撑着咯。。。

撑着

说的人，在试着隐藏他/她内心其实真的好无助和恐慌；
听的人，听得出他/她的百般无奈吗？

S.T.U.D.Y.?

Finally got my butt moving in reading up on the different courses.  And then I get all overwhelmed by all the information and my own questions...

• Should I just take a graduate diploma or a MBA or a MSc in Marketing or a MComm?
• Which University is good, since I never really believe in private schools issuing overseas universities' certificates? 
• Or what about courses jointly offered by those professional organizations like Marketing Institute of Singapore and NUS?
• UK universities? Australian universities?

W got to know that I am entertaining the thought of pursuing a MBA and suggested that we should take it together. Especially since she is planning to start end this year or early next year, depending on the next intake.

And she started to get all excited and said then it would be good to be tutorial mates again - after 10 years.  (damn. that's a pretty long time ago.)

The extent of her excitement goes as far as a suggestion on how we should study and help each other out in the presentations or projects amid our work schedule.  

But what she forgot is her impression of me was that of 10 years ago.  While I think she is still as aggressive as before, I think I am honestly losing steam. 

One thing I realised is most marketing students suck at financial accounting or financial management. Hah.

While she was rattling on and on, I found myself asking...

• Would I still have the energy to burn midnight oil for assignments or do tutorials?
• Would I still be so disciplined to study after work and burn my weekends burying myself in notes?  
• Would I then turn into a grumpy lady, if I find my free time burnt?  As of it is now, I find myself throwing temper at myself if I don't have enough own me-time or rest.

But then again, if some of my friends have done it, some are doing it now, and can do it... I should have no problem, right?  It still boils down to discipline, determination and time management, right?

Oh well...  I think I better start to go back and read the brochures more carefully again...