Going thru some extremely juvenile, yet for some reasons, super upsetting moments for the past week… Some of you would already knew about it, but I do not wish to mention this anymore… So for those of you who noe, and is reading this now, and is thinking of leaving some comments, please, please make it extremely subtle! I can’t suffer another blow/shock any time now…
What makes me feel worse is I am absolutely amazed with myself, or rather with my emotions, which went through a roller coaster ride just within a few days… Was so affected by this incident that (in no order of sequence):
* I was not really paying attention at work… so I am still struggling to do my newsletter… damn.. keeping fingers crossed my boss won’t ask me for it so soon… but theoretically, it’s already late for a week… jia lat….
* One fren was rather worried that she came down to lunch with me to make sure I was alright.
* Another fren took pains to console me, even though I know she’s not in tip-top condition too…
* I knocked my forehead against my desk when I was picking up something I dropped. It was such a loud knock that my colleagues around me turned and stared at me, eyes wide… and started laughing when I gave them an embarrassed grin…
* I walked right into a door and knocked my elbow… and this happened right after I knocked my forehead… yes.. I have two bruises now…
Told my fren last week I have confidence I’ll stop thinking about the incident and will recover by the time weekend was over… but it din happen… sigh… damn useless… I just hope I’ll snap out of this s-t-o-o-p-i-d thing soon… pretty soon… I have to make it happen… Guess it just boils down to whether I want to or not… urgh…
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Random…
• Been "struggling" to produce the internal newsletter… Kind of different from what I used to do... Now, I have to write the copy, think of the design, etc,etc.. ie, to produce the newsletter right from scratch to the finished product. Last time, at least, some one would propose the design to me, and I would have my other expert colleague to do these layout/designs for me. All I have to do is to sit back, shake leg, and wait to see the final layout… Oh boy, Cen and JH, how I missed the 2 of you.. hahaha.... It was tough in the beginning since my ex-colleagues all know I have no patience to sit in front of a computer trying to figure out how to draw a straight line, insert, crop, images, bla, bla, bla… but well, now, it got kind of fun… so I am enjoying it now… It trains my patience level as well, which is a good thing. Mum said I have been rather quick tempered these days…
• Something “major” happened at work on a Friday though… I caused, be it directly or indirectly, the whole company’s server to shut down at about 4 pm, after sending a super huge email to everyone…
Well, the thing is, that email was supposed to be sent by my boss... but she was rushing out for a meeting, so she asked me to send it instead… It was an email to tell everyone about adopting some new designs (which I came up with) for all their proposals, submissions and external reports. There was a link for them to access but boss wanted to let them see the different images, so asked me to copy and paste the images onto the email… Well, both of us totally forgot that I used super hi-res images for the designs.. and yes, you guessed it.. the email I sent was of 27 MB… to everyone (including my MD) in the office… **Faint**
And so, my phone started ringing every minute... the secretaries of some depts came over to ask me what "the hell" I sent… **Panic**
I ran to my IT guy but he told me that it was not due to my email that the server was down… so that was what I told everyone and anyone who came to me… but somehow, later, I realised that the IT guy said that so as not to worry me too much… Guess I had this super stressed look on my face then.. and worse, my boss was not in office… Sms-ed my boss, and she called back and joked that I will now be infamous in the office but everyone will thank me cos they can all leave early on a Friday evening!
At 6 pm, I guessed I better be out of the office fast, to prevent any more “bombardment” from other colleagues… Met two colleagues (A and B) at the lift lobby... The conversation went as follows:
A (looked at me with uncertain eyes): You are Ching Hsia?
I shook my head and said no, and went on to tell him my name.
A: Oh…
Then he turned to B and me.
A: You are the gal who sent that email, right? (At that moment, I managed a weak smile…) You know what my boss came to me and say when he received that email? (in my mind, **panic**, not again!) There is a 林青霞 who sent me an email!! (then he turned to me) that’s why I thought you are Ching Hsia… Sorry..
Well, those of you who know my full dialect name -- please put my first name, then my last name, and you will kind of know why the "mistake" was made… but he managed to make me feel better and laugh all the way until I met Cen for dinner… and with B shouting after me to tell me not to think about the email anymore and said it’s really no big deal, my day din end that bad after all…
• Something “major” happened at work on a Friday though… I caused, be it directly or indirectly, the whole company’s server to shut down at about 4 pm, after sending a super huge email to everyone…
Well, the thing is, that email was supposed to be sent by my boss... but she was rushing out for a meeting, so she asked me to send it instead… It was an email to tell everyone about adopting some new designs (which I came up with) for all their proposals, submissions and external reports. There was a link for them to access but boss wanted to let them see the different images, so asked me to copy and paste the images onto the email… Well, both of us totally forgot that I used super hi-res images for the designs.. and yes, you guessed it.. the email I sent was of 27 MB… to everyone (including my MD) in the office… **Faint**
And so, my phone started ringing every minute... the secretaries of some depts came over to ask me what "the hell" I sent… **Panic**
I ran to my IT guy but he told me that it was not due to my email that the server was down… so that was what I told everyone and anyone who came to me… but somehow, later, I realised that the IT guy said that so as not to worry me too much… Guess I had this super stressed look on my face then.. and worse, my boss was not in office… Sms-ed my boss, and she called back and joked that I will now be infamous in the office but everyone will thank me cos they can all leave early on a Friday evening!
At 6 pm, I guessed I better be out of the office fast, to prevent any more “bombardment” from other colleagues… Met two colleagues (A and B) at the lift lobby... The conversation went as follows:
A (looked at me with uncertain eyes): You are Ching Hsia?
I shook my head and said no, and went on to tell him my name.
A: Oh…
Then he turned to B and me.
A: You are the gal who sent that email, right? (At that moment, I managed a weak smile…) You know what my boss came to me and say when he received that email? (in my mind, **panic**, not again!) There is a 林青霞 who sent me an email!! (then he turned to me) that’s why I thought you are Ching Hsia… Sorry..
Well, those of you who know my full dialect name -- please put my first name, then my last name, and you will kind of know why the "mistake" was made… but he managed to make me feel better and laugh all the way until I met Cen for dinner… and with B shouting after me to tell me not to think about the email anymore and said it’s really no big deal, my day din end that bad after all…
"Angel" vs "Devil"
Not sure why but I thought of angel and devil the moment i saw this photo.. haha..
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Snippets (Not in any order of sequence or preference…)
* Watched Pirates of the Caribbean with Nan last Fri. Thoroughly enjoyed the show since it has been a long, long time that I remembered I laughed so hard during a movie. But Nan actually fell asleep halfway!!! Can’t believe it, when I was so glued to the screen and of course, having a hearty laugh…
* While Nan was busy choosing her toy pigs, I came across this young couple still in their uniforms in the shop. They were looking at some soft toys and apparently, the guy wanted the gal to wear her specs so that he can compare her to the soft toy (which was also wearing specs)… … and the gal was “sa-jiao-ing” and saying no in her most “diah” voice. At that moment, my hair literally, really all stood up and I had goose bumps all over… Young kids… haha… Another way to look at it, we already passed that stage, isn’t it?
* Work has been great… Still not very busy yet… But the only thing which I told everyone who asked me “how’s your new job?” was people tend to stick to their own dept’s people… So since my dept only comprises my Senior Manager (SM) and myself, if my SM does not do lunch, I will have to go lunch on my own. I’m actually OK with lunching on my own at times, enjoying the time/peace to myself… But so far, I only lunched on my own on three occasions. Some of my dear frens actually popped by the area and did lunch with me at times…
* Boss was on leave for whole of past week. Had to hold the fort by myself for one whole week… But think so far, I’ve been doing fine… Handled an impromptu media interview, which results in great coverage! (Woohoo!!), vet an ad for one dept, advised two another dept that their marketing collateral have to strictly adhere to our corp guidelines, etc, etc…
* Two ladies from another dept invited me to join them for lunch on Friday… They asked me who I always lunch with if my boss does not join me for lunch… When I replied sometimes with frens or alone, one of them looked at me sympathetically and said so poor thing… I just smiled and replied, so ask me more to join you ladies then! But in my heart, I was thinking.. why poor thing?? I’m actually quite ok with it… Maybe, I would feel the same way as her when I was a few years younger…the feeling/thought that those who do lunch alone either have no frens or someone who is not likeable… haha… but now, I think it’s perfectly fine… Enjoying your lunch, time to yourself… Do not need to entertain others… But of course, I admit it can be quite boring at times.. haha.. Am I not contradictory?
* One fren asked me recently if I am already attached and when I said no, he replied, so cham… and I was like… huh? Why cham also? Like what I just told my cousin a few weeks back, I am really, sincerely, truthfully enjoying every minute of my singlehood. After hearing/seeing so many heart-wrenching/heartbreaking real-life stories, I appreciate my singlehood even more… at the very least, I know I won’t get hurt… by some ass-kicking jerks. OK, not all guys are jerks… But, until I find that very person who makes my heart thump faster, makes sparks fly everywhere, connects with me intellectually, is ambitious, etc, etc… I do not see any reason why I should just get attached to any Ah Mao’s, Ah Kow’s…
* One fren, who noes I am still an ardent fan of Andy Lau, reasoned that I must be looking for another Andy Lau-lookalike… to which, I know for sure, the answer is no. Even if the other party is super good looking, if both our frequencies cannot match, there’s no way the relationship can even blossom… Communication is the key to any relationship… Then again, of course, if I meet the right one, and the feeling/chemistry is there, every other (high) standard that I may have set will automatically give way…But, for now, I know one thing for sure, and that is,
Love cannot and can never be compromised…
* While Nan was busy choosing her toy pigs, I came across this young couple still in their uniforms in the shop. They were looking at some soft toys and apparently, the guy wanted the gal to wear her specs so that he can compare her to the soft toy (which was also wearing specs)… … and the gal was “sa-jiao-ing” and saying no in her most “diah” voice. At that moment, my hair literally, really all stood up and I had goose bumps all over… Young kids… haha… Another way to look at it, we already passed that stage, isn’t it?
* Work has been great… Still not very busy yet… But the only thing which I told everyone who asked me “how’s your new job?” was people tend to stick to their own dept’s people… So since my dept only comprises my Senior Manager (SM) and myself, if my SM does not do lunch, I will have to go lunch on my own. I’m actually OK with lunching on my own at times, enjoying the time/peace to myself… But so far, I only lunched on my own on three occasions. Some of my dear frens actually popped by the area and did lunch with me at times…
* Boss was on leave for whole of past week. Had to hold the fort by myself for one whole week… But think so far, I’ve been doing fine… Handled an impromptu media interview, which results in great coverage! (Woohoo!!), vet an ad for one dept, advised two another dept that their marketing collateral have to strictly adhere to our corp guidelines, etc, etc…
* Two ladies from another dept invited me to join them for lunch on Friday… They asked me who I always lunch with if my boss does not join me for lunch… When I replied sometimes with frens or alone, one of them looked at me sympathetically and said so poor thing… I just smiled and replied, so ask me more to join you ladies then! But in my heart, I was thinking.. why poor thing?? I’m actually quite ok with it… Maybe, I would feel the same way as her when I was a few years younger…the feeling/thought that those who do lunch alone either have no frens or someone who is not likeable… haha… but now, I think it’s perfectly fine… Enjoying your lunch, time to yourself… Do not need to entertain others… But of course, I admit it can be quite boring at times.. haha.. Am I not contradictory?
* One fren asked me recently if I am already attached and when I said no, he replied, so cham… and I was like… huh? Why cham also? Like what I just told my cousin a few weeks back, I am really, sincerely, truthfully enjoying every minute of my singlehood. After hearing/seeing so many heart-wrenching/heartbreaking real-life stories, I appreciate my singlehood even more… at the very least, I know I won’t get hurt… by some ass-kicking jerks. OK, not all guys are jerks… But, until I find that very person who makes my heart thump faster, makes sparks fly everywhere, connects with me intellectually, is ambitious, etc, etc… I do not see any reason why I should just get attached to any Ah Mao’s, Ah Kow’s…
* One fren, who noes I am still an ardent fan of Andy Lau, reasoned that I must be looking for another Andy Lau-lookalike… to which, I know for sure, the answer is no. Even if the other party is super good looking, if both our frequencies cannot match, there’s no way the relationship can even blossom… Communication is the key to any relationship… Then again, of course, if I meet the right one, and the feeling/chemistry is there, every other (high) standard that I may have set will automatically give way…But, for now, I know one thing for sure, and that is,
Love cannot and can never be compromised…