Marching into Year 2009 with bravado!

That’s what Bloss said after our first heavy conversation on the first day of Year 2009. She asked if I were to die within the next hour, what would be my greatest regret?

I told her I don’t know. Because at the moment when she asked the question, I knew that if I were to die within the next hour, my loved ones would be around with me. That’s enough.

She also said the same thing – that she does not think that she has any. Maybe worries (牵挂) but not regrets. I guess she’s right.

I told her that I THINK I do not have any regrets – simply because I know that if I were to live my life all over again, I would still walk down the very same path.

That is, given my mental, emotional and physical state, coupled with the external circumstances/factors…

So IF I am very sure I would still choose the same path, I think I should have no regrets to talk about…

Granted, some of the choices/decisions I made during the past years had not been exactly easy. In fact, some were really tough. Very tough. But I guess it’s all part of growing up, or growing old/wiser, for that matter.

Year 2009 has been said by many that it is going to be a tough year – when all we see in papers every day are the terms including “economic downturn”, “recession”, “job losses” and “pay cut”, among others.

But I guess having a positive and optimistic mindset is important. I told Butter earlier to mix more with people who are cheerful and happy-go-lucky – so that she can benefit from all the positive vibes.

Guess there were just too many negative vibes for the past year, and it affected everyone around you, which, in turn, will also affect yourself. It’s one whole cycle, or karma…

I had wanted to stay home for a quiet New Year – more so to do some reflection… but in the end, I guessed I had pushed myself too hard for the past few weeks with all the late nights and booze… (I’m sure Bloss and Butter would agree, having exclaimed I was possessed by an alien and had behaved a bit abnormally) When I reached home yesterday and sat in my favourite couch, I actually dozed off a couple of times in front of the TV…

But I did catch some live fireworks! From Malaysia, that is. I forgot I could view fireworks from home since I could see Johor from my window… And it’s quite sweet – some of the fireworks were heart shaped! Awwww…

Oh well, whether I like it or not, Year 2009 is here and a new year is always said to signify a brand new start. So here’s CHEERS to a brand new start and hope/pray for the very best in all the things that I am (and you are) going to venture into!

Hip Hip Hooray!!!!

感觉：是什么东西？

I read somewhere that many people tend to record unhappy things in their diaries and we should actually make a conscious effort to keep a cheerful, happy diary - because if you only record sad and hurting incidents, when you flip through the pages years down the road, you may find that it was very foolish of you back then.

Before there exist such things as blogs or online entries, etc, I used to write/scribble/doodle a lot too... in my little journal. About how I felt towards many things that happened in my life -- about my past relationships, my close friends, my family, etc...

I recently flipped through my two journals and true enough... about 80 percent of the entries were quite upsetting. But I don't find it foolish at all because it's all parts and parcels of me, of my growing up days... It's what makes me who I am today...

I'm glad I put it down in writing back then... I'm glad I had such strong emotions back then, which just made me seem... seem more alive..

A lot of things had happened in the past couple of months. I was angry, upset, relieved, hurt, jealous, envious, elated, etc.

I had been wanting to jot down what made me go through all that I went through - but each time i stare at the screen or my journal, I actually did not know what to write at all... not even a single sentence. My mind was just a blank.

原来，最可怕和最可悲的不是你经历了悲欢离合， 也不是你曾经好大声地笑过，好伤心地哭过；而是你已经渐渐开始对这些起伏不定的情绪感到麻木， 也已经不知怎么去感觉。。。

The Ah Fung fever begins AGAIN...

I did the craziest thing AGAIN - which I never thought I would... at least, not at this age...

Butter told me on November 26 (Wednesday) that Raymond Lam, together with Kevin Cheng and Bobby Auyueng, would be in town the next day for an opening ceremony of a restaurant and gave me the address and time...

She got me all excited that I literally jumped up from my seat in the office and ran to tell SC who looked rather amused after hearing all my babblings ...

The next thing I knew - I was at Mohd Sultan on Thursday during lunch time - standing under the sun, outside the restaurant with a lot of other crazee women and men (Yes, there were men too! which I dun understand why...)

Anyway, I was actually standing at the back of the crowd... but when the three TVB stars arrived in the cool Lamborghinis, the crowd basically went amok...

Everyone was screaming and pushing such that I could not even hold my camera upright!

But the next wonderful thing I knew - I was standing right in front of Raymond Lam and Kevin Cheng!!! Awwww... "Raymond Lam is so 帅/cute/boysish" is such an understatement... **melts**

One could imagine how exhilarated I was - when I was tip-toe-ing at the back of the crowd trying to catch a glimpse and then was pushed all the way to the front!! No sweat/effort at all! Heee...

The black Lamborghini that Kevin Cheng was in...


The very suave Kevin Cheng... Somehow, his expression and outfit reminded me of "无间道"...


Bobby Auyueng! I like him too!


Bobby Auyueng and Raymond Lam


The shot that I took when Raymond Lam was right in front of my nose!! Alright.. eyes... Hiak hiak!


Raymond Lam - my friend said he has a cheeky face - cos he always has so many different expressions!


Awww...

Something I just read and felt strongly for...

女人再怎么宽容，也不会忘记那种被欺负的苦楚。

欺负，就是欺骗与辜负。

骗她，辜负她对他的好，对她的热情冷漠，让她受了委屈还不能回家说。

This is what we call service!

I received a call from the video shop which I always go to when I need to satisfy my Hong Kong drama serial addiction…

Shop guy: Harlow! It’s me! I noticed one thing!

Me: Huh, what? I’ve long returned the 家好月圆DVDs liao mah…

(good show, by the way!)





Shop guy: No la… I just wanted to say I noted that all the shows you last borrowed cast 林峰! And so I want to tell you he got new show leh!
Me: Oh…

Bla bla bla… Bla bla bla…

I was actually impressed that someone from a small video shop actually noted his customers’ purchasing behaviour and subsequently, made suitable recommendations. This is what good service should be, right? Instead of shoving me down the throat with this and that supposedly good show…

On another note, I thought the lyrics of the song is quite true, esp the ones in bold...



無心害你 - 《溏心風暴之家好月圓》主題曲
主唱︰關菊英

想一生一起　別想得這樣美
當中少不免　道別離
想歡歡喜喜　但清楚這道理
風光怎麼會沒了期

時日過　誰能成為大器
誰人全無運氣
這次抱你手臂　我怎麼竟顧忌
危難裏　我會陪著你
或是如同做戲
去到最尾會各自飛﹖

在變幻時候跟風駛里
在抉擇時候只好勢利
誰想講骨氣　最先必須有一些儲備
在抱著時候知己知彼
在對立時候爭取勝利
無非人生道理

在最壞時候必須卑鄙
在決裂時候彼此妒忌
無非人生道理
原本無心害你