Tuesday, June 03, 2014

最近的领悟和感慨

最近, 和家人出国时, 不幸地发生了意外。当场虽然吓坏了,手还微微地颤抖着, 但还好, 还会理智地知道要马上播叫紧急救护车,找当地人来帮忙。 整件事现在想起来, 还是历历在目。

还好, 现在家人已在康复中。 也还好, 脑部也只是皮外伤。

所谓经一事, 长一智。 以前虽然都知道以下所要说的, 但就是从来都没认认真真地去思考过。 也许就是抱着鸵鸟的逃避思想或啊Q的行为吧。

这起意外真的是让我如梦初醒。

  1. 手上还真的要有能应急的一笔钱。 流动资金。 就算有买保险, 也得自己先掏腰包。这一笔流动资金数目还不能过小。 至少要两三万。
  2. 发生事情时, 不管心里有多慌, 有多怕, 也不能完全流露出来。 因为这样只会让伤者和其他你身边的人更慌, 更怕。 于事无补。 
  3. 朋友, 真的是几个真心的就好。 把你时时刻刻放在心上就好。 在知道你发生事情时, 不管自己有多累, 有多忙, 不管时间已很晚, 还是热心地帮你安排好看医生, 动手术的一切手续。又或是特地过来陪你陪家人等医生。或下了班就算路途遥远也来探病慰问。或每隔一两天, 就慰问一切还好吗。 这一切, 我都看在眼里, 感动在心里。 很庆幸, 我有了这些死党朋友。 
  4. 相反的, 也让我看清了一些所谓的朋友。 像是一个就问了我最近好不好,最近遇到什么事情了。听完如实汇报后, 却心不在焉地只对我说:"能说些开心,正能量的事情吗?" 听了, 我的心也凉了。 好冷。 这些就是属于猪朋狗友。 只能享富贵, 却不能共患难。 
事事难料。这一分钟不知下一分钟的事。 珍惜现在所拥有的。最重要, 珍惜眼前人。

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Horror...

The split second of super-duper-panic to realise you are unable to find the document to attach to your email, which you have been diligently working on for the past few hours… at 1.20 am.  Blah!  

Tuesday, October 01, 2013

It has been ages...

It has been ages since my last blog entry.  

I have almost forgotten about its existence until the recent meeting with a major developer when they asked me what I’ve gotten to show them – outside of work, since I mentioned I like writing.  And they asked me to show them my blog, if it’s not too much of rudeness.   It was indeed a bit intrusive but oh well, I shared.  And they were surprised I did some of my entries in Chinese.   Well yes, I think I can safely say I’m effectively bilingual, as compared to many people out there.


It has been ages since I last go so ga-ga over a drama series; and it has also been ages since I last bawled my eyes out upon watching TV shows.  

Come to think of it, bawling your eyes out could be quite liberating.  At least, I felt that way. OK, minus the super swollen eyes thereafter.  Surprisingly, this drama is not even my usual favourite TVB dramas.  It’s a China production, together with some Taiwanese and Hong Kong artistes.  Heard a DJ mention the show a few times over a few mornings, and thought I might just check it out.  And then, by the 2nd episode, I’m dead hooked.   Yes, dead hooked.  Such that I couldn't wait to knock off work to go home continue to watch it.   And the songs from the drama are on loop at work.  

I’ve always enjoyed watching periodic dramas since young.  The costumes and hair accessories for ladies are just so pretty – maybe that explained why I also always enjoyed my Chinese Dance performances.   I missed performing.  And then because of this drama, I started reading up on Chinese history again.  And so, there is really a 兰陵王 in 公元541年- 573年.... 

Hmmm… I still want to go China see those 兵马俑!  



Saturday, January 26, 2013

2013 - 给自己的一个承诺

剪了。
 
把我的乌黑(是有几根白的啦)长发剪短了。

好短,还真的有点不习惯。

好玄。写到一半,收音机还竟然播了梁咏琪 的《短发》。

。。。我已剪短我的发 剪断了牵挂。。。

很多人常认为女人会舍得把长发剪短 ,大多是想借此行动摆脱一些想法,一些事情,或是一个人。

因为,把长发剪短,其实真的还需要一点的勇气;而勇气的来源,也大多是来自心坑里。 既然有勇气把多年来蓄的长发剪短,就应该也有勇气切断一些损不利己的事物关系。

把长发剪短,整个人好像也真的精神多了,清爽多了。 改头换面, 不就是希望有一个新的开始,从新出发。

剪短了三千烦恼丝,不一定就能真的剪断了思念。

只是每当在镜子前看到自己短发的摸样,就会提醒自己凡事应该向前看,往前走。 只有这样,才能找到真正属于自己的天空。

加油!

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

找一個相愛到老的人

為什麼總想著要找個人託付終身呢?

可以找個相愛、相依、相伴的人,可是,別老想著依賴別人。

世上沒有不變的東西,即使那個人很愛你,他也有死亡的一天,到時候,你又要依賴誰?

女人還是要學會獨立。

當你活得好,你想找的不再是一個託付終身的人,而是一個相愛到老的人。

~ 张小娴
 

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

梁靜茹(Fish Leong) - 偶陣雨



Totally in love with this new song:  nice lyrics and understated melody...

作词:陈没 作曲:木兰号aka陈韦伶演唱:梁静茹

过去总算渐渐都还过得去
未来就等来了再决定
回忆多少还留一点点余地
还不至于回不去

谁的青春没有浅浅的瘀青?
谁的伤心能不留胎记?
谁的一见钟情不刻骨铭心?
谁能任性不认命?

你的嘴角微微扬起
你用微笑剪接我的微电影
偶尔饶了我自己
偶尔难免还想你
偶尔晴时多云 偶尔有阵雨

我的下巴微微扬起
不让泪滴主演我的微电影
你是微醺的上集
你是微妙的下集
你是未完待续 当局者的迷
谁的一见钟情不刻骨铭心?

Sunday, June 24, 2012

过火

有些事,玩得再疯,也不能过火。

过了,再解释,心也许还是不能释怀。
不能释怀,心里的芥蒂如何解开?
解不开,就不能再回去像以前一样。
回不去了,也就代表感情开始变质了。
变质了的感情,你还会要吗?  

要了,就得解开芥蒂。
要解开,就得释怀。
要得到释怀,就得百分之百地,傻傻地,
义无反顾地相信你的解释。
但能做得到吗? 

不要了,那么,为什么还是希望
你能多点儿耐心地一再解释,
让我释怀,帮我拔除芥蒂。
不是说过,有你在,就不用怕吗? 

说穿了,
有些事,玩得再疯,就是不能过火。

Monday, June 04, 2012

看懂一件事,长大了。
看清一件事,开窍了。
看破一件事,理性了。
看透一件事,成熟了。
看淡一件事,放下了。

Sunday, April 08, 2012

Songs that made me tear the first time I heard them...

1) 黃小琥-伴

The first time I heard this song was via a Facebook post by a friend whose caption was "通过我的老公听到这首歌。感动。。。也许,这就是夫妻之道。。。”

Praying for this friend who should be going through a tough time, with her husband suffering from a relapse from leukemia...

And so happen, TCS 8 uses this song for the current drama now.  Nice...



作詞:姚若龍
作曲:于曉光、李偉菘
編曲:Terence Teo
如果 命運可以訂做
如果 有另一次選擇
我想我 還是會 把手讓你緊握
快樂地陪你去坎坷
就算 你有天變落魄
就算 你老得不能動
我想我 還是會 挽著你看日落
你的心疼在淚光中
嘴巴上 彼此嫌麻煩
眼神中 關懷那麼滿
沒說愛 卻早已認定一輩子的伴

在人前 從來不浪漫
在心中 卻總為對方打算
最懂的人最暖的伴

就算 我以後變囉嗦
就算 我老了有病痛
我想你 還是會 照顧我到最後
隱藏脆弱不眠不休

沒有辛酸 沒有遺憾
什麼是陪伴 什麼是心安 你是答案


2) 江惠 家後

The first time I heard this song was a friend who sang this at the KTV and then, subsequently, heard this song at wedding banquets...  Sweet...

Saturday, December 31, 2011

給2012年的5句話

1. 再難也要堅持。
2. 再好也要淡泊。
3. 再差也要自信。
4. 再多也要珍惜。
5  再冷也要熱情。

加油,變成比昨天更好的自己!

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Year end jitters

The last two weeks of 2011.  It’s scary how time flies.   

For some reasons, I’m actually feeling year end jitters.  Uneasy.  And I absolutely don’t like this feeling.  

It’s the feeling like you still have some unfinished business, yet you have no idea what it is… Or maybe you know, but you just are not brave enough to face it.  

A lot of things are running through my mind.  Stressed at work, stressed about mum, stressed about myself, and stressed about everything and anything.   

I think I’m getting neurotic.   

I get upset very easily, and even at the slightest thing and I tear so easily.   Though I have wanted to push the blame to “that time of the month”.    But I know it’s not.  

One bestie told me one night that I should start thinking more for myself, instead of letting all the 101 other things weigh me down that much.   She says that I worry and think too much for others, and maybe that’s why I am also starting to complain that my grey hairs are popping out.   

And guess what?  When we were about to part ways and she told me to remember to give her a call any day any time, when I just want to lash out, I just cried.  See?  That’s what I meant I’m getting neurotic.  

The jitters are really getting into me.  Such that there are days words just don’t come to me.  I can’t express myself properly and end up hemming and hawing – even when I’m with friends.  Blah…  

I really hope I will hear some good news this coming week.  At least, there will be some things off my cluttered mind.  And if it turns out good, I can welcome 2012 with gusto! 

Pray for me.  J 

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Musings
























I absolutely like this sucker.  =p

Sunday, September 04, 2011

《撑着》

撑着
多心酸和沉重的字眼

问:最近 工作还好吗?
答:还过得去吧。吃不,饿不死,在撑着吧。。。

问:最近 你和他/她还好吧?
答:还好吧。。。撑着咯。。。

撑着
说的人,在试着隐藏他/她内心其实真的好无助和恐慌;
听的人,听得出他/她的百般无奈吗?

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

S.T.U.D.Y.?

Finally got my butt moving in reading up on the different courses.  And then I get all overwhelmed by all the information and my own questions...
  • Should I just take a graduate diploma or a MBA or a MSc in Marketing or a MComm?
  • Which University is good, since I never really believe in private schools issuing overseas universities' certificates? 
  • Or what about courses jointly offered by those professional organizations like Marketing Institute of Singapore and NUS?
  • UK universities? Australian universities?

W got to know that I am entertaining the thought of pursuing a MBA and suggested that we should take it together. Especially since she is planning to start end this year or early next year, depending on the next intake.

And she started to get all excited and said then it would be good to be tutorial mates again - after 10 years.  (damn. that's a pretty long time ago.)

The extent of her excitement goes as far as a suggestion on how we should study and help each other out in the presentations or projects amid our work schedule.  

But what she forgot is her impression of me was that of 10 years ago.  While I think she is still as aggressive as before, I think I am honestly losing steam. 

One thing I realised is most marketing students suck at financial accounting or financial management. Hah.

While she was rattling on and on, I found myself asking...

  • Would I still have the energy to burn midnight oil for assignments or do tutorials?
  • Would I still be so disciplined to study after work and burn my weekends burying myself in notes?  
  • Would I then turn into a grumpy lady, if I find my free time burnt?  As of it is now, I find myself throwing temper at myself if I don't have enough own me-time or rest.

But then again, if some of my friends have done it, some are doing it now, and can do it... I should have no problem, right?  It still boils down to discipline, determination and time management, right?

Oh well...  I think I better start to go back and read the brochures more carefully again...

Happily Ever After

So I realise I am not the only one who swear by this...

That being able to still believe in fairytales takes more than a lot of faith.

That while I still think I believe in "happily ever after", I have to admit that it is, sadly, rare.

Read this from a friend's blog... that

"...your knight in shining armour may actually pass you by in beggars' clothes because he just did his laundry.  Did you keep your eyes open?  I know I didn't."

I found myself smiling when I read the laundry part. Hah! And...

"...for every happily ever/walking into the sunset, etc you read, you must remember, there is always a little matchgirl, or the little mermaid."

How sad.  (OK. I know little matchgirl died.  But what happened to little mermaid?) 

Sunday, June 26, 2011

End May - June 2011

I have a few people asking me why I haven't been updating my blog recently.

Well, I was busy, tired.  No, I think I was physically exhausted. 

It has been a super packed month  - such that I was getting emotionally unstable due to the lack of rest and sleep.  During the week, I worked till quite late almost every day - either staying back in office or going for tuition.  I became very quick tempered and didn't want to really talk to anyone.  I just want to get the job(s) done. 

Last weekend of May
This weekend was kinda 自找one. 

It all started with me wanting to go Lombok in late May and happened to mention my intention to a friend - whom, to my surprise, immediately agreed and said let's go.  But somehow, for some dunno-what-shitty-reason, the conversation suddenly switched from going to Lombok to Club Med Bintan.  And the more we discussed, the more I realised she was quite insistent on going to Club Med. 

I tried the subtle way in rejecting going to Club Med, but failed.  Instead, she kinda succeeded in gettng her message across to me that Club Med Bintan shall be the destination.  And suddenly, it became my fault for not wanting to travel. 

It reminded me of what I blogged before.

That many women are very skilful in this - saying "I don't know." or "Anything." or "Í'm OK. You decide."  And if you take it at face value, and make your suggestion, they will go "Sounds good. But... ..." 

What you don't realise is that they will overthrow all your suggestions and slowly kills you with exasperation and frustration.  And the best part is?  When things fall apart, it will somehow end up being your fault!

Ahhh...

I am guilty of this too, but I think some of my girl friends are so much better at this - even to me!   Gosh... I pity the guys.  Cos as a woman, if I can't stand such behaviour, I wonder how the guys do - each and every time.

I must make a mental note not to do this anymore. 

So anyway, back to my story, when I decided to stop being subtle and directly told her that I didn't think it was worth $700+ to go Club Med Bintan, she threw her temper and said I spoiled her plans for a short getaway!

Huh?  I was upset that she was upset with me.  Over things like these.  Nonetheless, to appease her, I found a trip to Batam over the weekend, and told her "take it or leave it."

She took it and I just psycho-ed myself to get the trip over and done with.  At least, I had an early night that night!

Never such unhappy planning again!

First weekend
It was Bloss' hen's night.  I was sick.  Very.  With sore throat and super part-running-part-blocked nose.  But it was Bloss' hen's night.  I must be present! 

And so off I go, in my half-sick-half-sober state.  Fortunately for me, we had a pampering session instead of a wild party.  We started off with a massage at Holland Village, followed by wash-and-blow hair session at Marina Square, dinner at One Fullerton and ended off with drinks at One Altitude.

At the salon: See I can't even open my eyes anymore!



















Didn't really like going back to Raffles Place area during a weekend.  But Bloss hasn't been to the area, particularly One Altitude - so we decided to bring her there. 

Hope she had enjoyed herself.  

By the time I reached home during the wee hours,  I immediately concussed.  And still had to wake up early to go tuition.  =(  And called off a belated birthday lunch session with a friend, who, luckily, understood I needed the remaining half-day weekend to rest. 

Second weekend
I had long arranged with another friend to go into Johor this weekend for karting and seafood.  But because I was very tired, I asked the friend if it was possible to find another friend to take my place instead.  Failed. 

And so, off I go to Johor.  This was not so bad because I love karting!  And it was fun!  With the drizzle.  Hah.

I must go again!

Belated birthday lunch on Sunday with the friend whom I flew kite the previous week, and ended up home at only 5 pm plus... Tired...

Third weekend
It was Beerfest.  I was supposed to go but ended up working OT until 3 am in office.  Friends started calling me in their half-drunk state.  Waited for me until 2 am plus, when we all finally concluded I was not going to make it down in time.  Not even to meet them for supper. 

And then, it was Bloss' wedding.  Truly happy for her that she found a man who loves her back as deeply.

As I always believe, honestly, girls don't need a memorable wedding.  They need a memorable marriage.  Their wedding was kept simple.   Ok - but still, there were certain logistics to take care of.

And the groom was late in coming to pick her!  Goodness.  Apparently, the brothers went to the wrong place to pick the groom...  Oh well, but fortunately, all seemed to go well thereafter!
The PPGs - Bloss' wedding day!















Fourth weekend
I was supposed to meet another friend for a belated birthday dinner on Thursday.  But I had to go for dinner with my regional colleague, so had to cancel it. 

And we had wanted to meet on Wednesday too.  But the work event ended late.  Later than previous years.  Honestly, this year, I don't think the event was well-run.  It was a bit tad chaotic.  But for some reason, the senior management seemed impressed and praised us for a good event night!  Oh well, so long as they are happy.

And I honestly hate it when guys try to be "funny" on the pretext that they are high or drunk. It's OK if I'm a willing party, but I'm not! Bleah!

Someone came up to me and my boss, and wanted a hug from each of us.  I immediately turned black faced, turned away and pretended to be busy and ignored him.  And he still walked up to me, and asked me straight in my face why I always ignore him.   Duh. 

And the next thing I knew, he gave me a super tight hug.  The only fortunate thing was I managed to turn such that my shoulder and elbow were towards him, and I was carrying a file in front of me.  And the worst part was, his hug was so tight, I couldn't even budge! 

I think I gave such a disgusted look and kept rolling my eyes, while trying to wriggle my way out, that someone saw it and tried to get me out of that situation, by initially saying to eventually shouting, "XX, you can't be for real.  Come on.  Look, you are suffocating her.  Let her go. She can't breathe and is turning blue.  Let her go now and let's go off!"

And off he did.  To hug my boss. Whispered in her ear, and then kissed her cheek.  Yucks! 

Fine.  I'm OK if one tries to be eng moh, and act all friendly with the hugs and pecks. But those were obviously not friendly gestures.  Those were "eat toufu" gestures.  Eeks. 
I love the poster wall at the smoking area! Hah!


















Everyone thought I would have some breather after the event on Wednesday, but no.  I still had so many things to write and do.  Sigh...
In the end, I cancelled my Friday dinner and also rejected a colleague's farewell dinner.  I decided to just go home and sleep.
Slept from 10 pm on Friday night to 10 am.  Then sleep again from 1030 pm on Saturday to 830 am.

Bliss.  I love my bed.  It's 10-ish pm now.  I think I want to go to bed again!  Night people!

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

This speaks to me...

Read my horoscope for May and this is what it says...

"You'll have certain tendency toward depression.  The problem, in fact, is that you want to have everything immediately. Be more patient, and everything will fare better and better. You'll risk going from absolute bliss to the deepest sorrow, without transition, for a small dispute, a little worry!"

How true. :(

Sunday, May 08, 2011

Dress hunting for June!

好姐妹要嫁人了!

这一次,她对婚礼的要求比较多。 是好事。

因为这代表她的 在意和在乎,所以会有要求和期盼。

I helped to plan, find and coordinate the wedding - from photography to wedding invite, to wedding venue decor, among others. 

Honestly speaking, she's an easy-to-please bride.  There are a lot of things, which honestly, I would not have agreed to.  But she's OK.  She's the bride.  So if she's OK with not having some things, or not having what I thought could have been better, I leave it to her. 

 A sneek preview to her wedding photo! **Oops!  I hope she won't scold me for sharing it first!**

The dinos!










We went dress hunting for the sisters yesterday and here are the few dresses we tried on!

Dress 1: But it's a tad too short.. Out it goes.

Dress 2: For the evening.  But again, it's too short for Sista No. 3. So no deal. :(



Dress 3: For the day-time.  The photo does not really do the dress justice.  We swear it looks better.  Both Cheryl & I like this but too bad, it does not fit Sista Number 3. =(  So out it goes.


Dress 4: We love the tutu.  But due to its impracticality after the wedding, we decided it's a no-go. :(
 

 




Dress 5:  I always love bubble dresses.  Suit my bubbly personality. Hah! But we thought this is too normal, and it's a bit tad pricey for made-to-order or MTM.  So no more BUBBLES. :(

Dress 6: Another variation from the tutu dress.  But we decided it kinda looked blah after some time.  So nope. Out it goes!

 
Dress 7: After trying many many many dresses, we finally settled on this.  Turquoise tube flair dress with a cream white satin ribbon.  Simple and seemingly common.  But we thought we can at least wear this to dinners and also, it's quite a deal at S$70 for made-to-order dress!  And the shop owner turns out to be my school mate, so she is not charging us for alterations. Cool!

Sunday, May 01, 2011

王子公主结婚了!

Watched the wedding of Prince William and Kate Middleton on BBC.

Her Royal Highness, the Duchess of Cambridge, is simply gorgeous on one of the most significant days in her life.

I love her gown. Simple. Feminine. Understated elegance.

Lovely couple from what I gathered on screen. They fell in love, broke up and got back together.













他们的结合真的好童话般似的。 祝福他们!

Sunday, April 17, 2011

Inspired.

I’m glad boss couldn’t go to the conference and I had to go in her place instead. Meeting marketers from other industries is always refreshing for a change. You will then realise that the marketing world you are living in is really far too myopic. At least, for me.

I looked through the list of delegates and I realised I was the only small fry there. All the designations were big. Chief Marketing Officers la; Regional Marketing Directors la; Head of Global Marketing la, etc from companies like Facebook, M1, Nokia, Ogilvy, SingTel, Standard Chartered Bank, etc. I almost didn’t want to exchange name cards. But that’s beside the point…

You also then realise that these top-notch marketers are at their positions today – for a reason.

These people are charismatic. And there are just far too many smarter brains to pick. And most importantly of all, they are passionate about their jobs. It is that amazing. I could literally feel their passion oozing out of their skin, even through the few minutes talking to them during the networking breaks and luncheons.

I need to mix with these people more. Or rather, I need to meet with and hear from these people more.

It reminds me why I chose to do marketing in the first place.

This conference came at a good time for me. At a time when I am starting to question what and why I am doing what I am doing. At a time when I feel that I cannot draw any more inspiration and motivation from my job, and even the people around me.

At a time when I tell a few people that I want to go upgrade myself with a MBA or some skills certification, and all I get are either some disapproving or discouraging remarks. Don’t they understand that I need some brain stimulation, and talking to and hanging out with them don’t satisfy me at all in that area?

Then again, now as I am penning this, I wonder why I even bother to ask people for their opinions. If I feel something would benefit me, I should just go ahead, isn’t it?

At a time when I wonder why some friends are so free that they can call/text me at all possible opportunity to gush off their thoughts about this new guy they just met and knew and wonder if there is a possibility between them.

Get a life!

If you think there is a possibility, just go ahead. Cos I wouldn’t know. I’m not him. I’m not you. And to be really blunt, I’m not interested – especially when I am at work or when I am having lunch or when I am going to bed. Because anyway, the next time these people contact me again, it’s going to be a different guy anyway!

Anyway, I digress.

The conference also reminded me of something my mum used to say to me when I was only in Primary school. “Compare yourself only with those who are better and stronger than you, for you will only strive for improvement then. But compare yourself with those who are on par with you, or worse, weaker than you, you will only turn complacent or worse, feel self accomplished for the wrong reasons – which will only lead to your own degradation. The path is yours to choose.”

So now, I think about the people, friends and associates who are supposedly in the marketing line that I know. Better, on par or weaker? Hmm… Maybe it’s high time to “change” some “friends”.