The last two weeks of 2011. It’s
scary how time flies.
For some reasons, I’m actually feeling year end jitters. Uneasy.
And I absolutely don’t like this feeling.
It’s the feeling like you still have some unfinished business, yet you
have no idea what it is… Or maybe you know, but you just are not brave enough
to face it.
A lot of things are running through my mind. Stressed at work, stressed about mum,
stressed about myself, and stressed about everything and anything.
I think I’m getting neurotic.
I get upset very easily, and even at the slightest thing and I tear so
easily. Though I have wanted to push
the blame to “that time of the month”.
But I know it’s not.
One bestie told me one night that I should start thinking more for
myself, instead of letting all the 101 other things weigh me down that
much. She says that I worry and think too much for others, and maybe that’s why I am also starting to complain that my
grey hairs are popping out.
And guess what? When we were
about to part ways and she told me to remember to give her a call any day any
time, when I just want to lash out, I just cried. See?
That’s what I meant I’m getting neurotic.
The jitters are really getting into me.
Such that there are days words just don’t come to me. I can’t express myself properly and end up
hemming and hawing – even when I’m with friends. Blah…
I really hope I will hear some good news this coming week. At least, there will be some things off my
cluttered mind. And if it turns out good, I can welcome 2012 with gusto!
Pray for me. J
