Most of you know, by now, that I will be starting my new job soon. Congrats to myself! Yes, I am finally getting myself out… after three years of foul shit and more foul shit.
In case you are as sotong as some of my frens, I am starting on 5 June. Some frens thought I was starting on 15, 22 or 29 May… well, I guess I can’t blame them, because they, too, can’t wait for me to get out of this place. All of them are so happy for me that I am finally moving on…
To be frank, it wasn’t exactly easy. I wasn’t able to sleep a wink in April… I know I told many people that it’s a long grandmother story and I’ll tell you guys some other time… Let me shed some light onto this now…
Until now, my boss still cannot comprehend the reason I am leaving. When I informed her of my intention to leave in April, she tried hard, **read: very hard** to help me see where and how I can grow, **read: be her slave**, in this company.
“I am training you to be a manager – of top-quality. Not everyone out there has this chance.”
“I appreciate that money is your motivation factor, and trust me, I have a full pot of money for you to earn.”
“If the problem lies with me, I’ll work on it. If you feel that we have a lot of friction and you are not able to handle it, let me know. I can bring one more person in to be the buffer between us.”
These are just some of the excuses she tried to make me change my mind. One thing that my colleagues and I agreed is that she is super eloquent, making you feel guilty, and making her problem your problem… My Client Services Manager just left for a plush job… and so, the whole client services team only left me and her… now u see why she is holding her dear life to me? But to cut to the chase, so, along the way, somehow, she succeeded in making me feel extremely guilty for leaving the already-sinking ship… she saw that my determination was wavering…
Of course, me, being my usual self, awoke to reality again, the moment I stepped out the meeting room, and I went cursing and swearing at myself for being such a wimp…
So, anyway, after much discussion and planning with my two managers, we decided that I would just tell her I am going to pursue my teaching dream – since the boss knows this dream of mine – and I was not going to miss this intake in July.
And so we thought that would be the end of the story… well, we were so so so wrong… she just didn’t let go… and the tug-of-war just continued when one fine day, I decided to just pass her my resignation letter. She threw a fit, screaming at me and banging her folders on the table – and said I was wasting her time! What the #Y*@&%$&*^)...
When she recovered later in the day, she came to me with a different tone, asking me if I can help her with one media event in Desaru in July. And said I couldn’t possibly do this to her… My last day was the day she will still be in the States… Being soft-hearted again, I told her I could not give her promise now and agreed to check my schedule… And so, the conversations continued again and I realised one day, she told the others that I’ve finally decided to stay! That was the last straw…
Anyway, I understood that part of this hoo-ha was due to my own lack of firmness, allowing her to lead me by the nose… She knew I was soft-hearted and she decided to play that card, and nearly won…
But well, I am glad it was finally confirmed that I am leaving… but well… like all the rest of my ex-colleagues, the notice period was hell… which will take me another blog entry… let you guys know soon…
But meanwhile, read this – the entry on “War has Begun” to get a glimpse of what is happening in this already-sinking ship.
