Heard <<我等到花兒也謝了>> on radio… and it actually gave me goose bumps ~ especially the first verse when there wasn’t much music in the background.
He’s really not given the title of 歌神 for nothing. His voice is damn “powderful” lor … **Swoons**
***
Anyway, been rather pissed and upset at work these days. And it’s all cos of some moron who kicked a big fuss over ONE LINE I wrote in the internal newsletter.
First, he came to me, brought me to the notice board and then shouted at me there and then, questioning me why I changed the copy he gave me. And then went on to question me who gave me the authority to change it? And while raising his voice at me, his ugly scrawny finger was pointing and hitting the notice board so hard that there was a minor “dent”, and the paper in a near-torn state.
And I especially hated it when he did not even give me a second to explain or talk back or actually make sense out of this whole thing, and he walked away! Fish him la...
Followed his secretary back to her table, printed out what he gave me, and honestly, until then, or rather, until now, I still have no idea what the BIG fuss was about.
Asked his girl..
Me: So what’s the difference between what he gave and what I wrote?
Girl: Dunno.
Me: **in my mind** what the Fish!
And then he suddenly appeared from nowhere, and made it loud and clear to me again..
“You owe me an explanation. Your boss owes me an explanation. Ask your boss to COME TO ME AND EXPLAIN.”
And he walked away again!
Pardon me. But if I could really swear there and then, I would have really hurled vulgarities at him and could really kick him in his groin man.
What the fish!
1) There’s no need for him to raise his voice at me. He could have confronted me in a firm and professional way. He could have explained to me why it was wrong. And not just tell me, I’m right. You are wrong and how dare you have the audacity to edit what I gave you.
2) I don’t report to him. He’s not the big boss or the 2nd or 3rd in command anyway. What the hell. And so, why the hell is he raising his voice at me, in a place smacked right in the middle of the company?
3) I really hate it when people walk away, accusing me of something and then don’t even listen to what I have to say – regardless of whether you agree with me or not. Please lor, this is a work place and not your home where you can just throw tantrums and walk away, without listening what others have to say. Still don’t understand how could such attitude happen in a work place, especially with someone in the senior management?
To cut long story short, it was such a huge matter to that moron that he asked his girl to come arrange a meeting with me and boss. Asked us when we are free – to which my boss said – no, we are not free. No time.
And he ultimately had no choice but to walk to my boss’ workstation, and oh man, it was another session of heated “argument”. But of course, he was so soft this time, I couldn’t hear him at all. But my boss managed to stay firm to what we wrote and I think it drove him nuts.
Apparently, when big boss came back, he complained to him about us. And then my boss was being called in for a “chit chat” session. And God knows what and how he painted the whole picture, big boss had the impression that the “mistake” I made was communicated to the media. When my boss told him it was only a one-liner in our internal newsletter, big boss only uttered an “Oh…”
What actually got me very upset was how big boss tried to broach the subject with boss… Apparently, he broached the subject by telling my boss that maybe next time, on what ever matters, she could approach to the HODs and talk to them personally, instead of getting me to talk to them.
What the fish!!
1) I rarely approached the moron directly since I know he has such a big ego that he talks only to the heads, that I always passed message via his secretary.
2) And for this matter, he was the one who came to me and gave me a lecture mah. Not me.
3) If I really have a communication problem, why is it that I have no problems with the rest of the HODs and are on good terms with a couple of them?
And that was when the light bulb lit with boss and she knew straight away it was this moron who complained to big boss, and that’s how all the things came to light.
Even though boss managed to shoot all the false accusations down, and backed me up, I just feel damn pissed. Besides, I heard the session between boss and big boss from boss herself. Call me paranoid but how would I know how true it is or rather, what other things big boss have said but boss chose to keep it from me?
Think my boss caught my face slowly turning blacker and blacker, and she told me to cool it and said so long as we know what we are doing, it’s OK. There’s no need to get so angry.
And then, I kept bumping into him in office today. Tried to control myself to not look at him and just look straight, head up; otherwise, I think I would really kick him in his arse ~ literally.
He sent something to my boss, copied big boss and me today. Though there were words like “Thank you”, his tone was condescending. “I expect you to bla la bla. You are to bla la bla.” And his last line was something along the line tat he expects direct communication from my boss from now on. Which I read between the lines to warn me to stay clear from and out of his way from now on.
So be it.
I don’t even want to communicate with his girl now. His girl called me twice when I was in meeting today. Rejected the calls. Didn’t even check back, which I usually would. Shall leave this department to my boss.
How idiotic.
And boss had to remind me today that I need to start work soon on the next issue. I wonder if I can just allocate minimal space to this department.
Oh, on another note. Someone actually vandalized the photos of the staff being featured in this issue. Drew all over her face. Just find it hard to believe such things still exist in the corporate world, where everyone’s supposed to be mature working adults.
Showed my boss, who showed big boss. Saw big boss shake his head and crushed the paper immediately, with his face turning solemn.
***
I did my part in leaving him alone for two weeks and only tried to check with him how things are at home now, and all I got in reply was a “Still been very busy with many stuff”. Fine ~ so blatant that his many stuffs don’t include me, nor sharing with me nor updating me.
Oh well, I’m not going to do my part anymore. Enuff of such rubbish. He wants his barang back, he wants to only look for me when he is finally done with his many stuffs and finally has the time, he blardy well just waits until when I have the time and mood.
Alright, nonetheless, I pray for his family’s good health.
***
Think haven't really stayed home for the whole day on Sundays for the entire August... Tired... Two Sundays went to birthday celes. One Sunday went to two tuition lessons. One Sunday went to some event.
I want my Sundays back. MY Sundays. Just for myself. So going to block out Sundays... Shall start next week.
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
A very incoherent entry...
I would most probably be “stoned to death” by my friends for entertaining this WEIRD thought and even have the audacity penning this down in record… but I shall naively assume that all my friends, especially those close ones, are mature enough to understand that individuals are entitled to their own random thoughts and opinions, etc, regardless of how weird or boh-liao they are…
Had dinner with Nancy last night, and when she asked me casually what I’ve been busy with for the past month or so…
Me: The usual.. but I’ve been feeling very tired for the longest time, and having the nagging feeling that I haven’t had time for myself for a long long time… and I need that.
Nan: You keep going out with A & B? Meeting them weekly?
Me: No.
Nan: Then? Why no time for yourself? Why so busy? Or you keep meeting C? Or is it D? E, F or G?
And so, she started to list all the names I dropped during our past conversations (gosh.. she does have a good memory…) I perfectly understood that she meant well and expressing concern (which I do appreciate) when she tried to probe further; but on the other hand, I felt I was being interrogated. And part of me was wondering – why do I need to tell you who I’ve been frequently meeting or what?
Despite my repetitive “NO” answer, she, being her usual inquisitive self, did not really catch the subtle hint that I wanted her to stop probing there and then.
To prevent her from guessing further, I simply told her not to guess or ask anymore, cos I could not remember (which was true… , or at least, it’s not at the tip of my fingertips what I did for the past week or who I met.. and I’m not interested, and too lazy, to think, think, think just to satisfy her inquisitive appetite…)
But from this incident, something just suddenly got me thinking…
She could just start to list names of some of MY friends, regardless whether she really knows them or not… And she knows what I’ve been up to randomly, via some of my friends’ FB updates (who have also added her as friend. Or I dunno who add who..) And honestly, and dun ask me why, but for whatever reasons, I’m not exactly comfortable with that.
Take for example, she just went – You and Serene drove all of you up to Cameron?! You dare to drive?? Whose car did you drive? And all those questions just totally caught me off guard.
Not that I have anything to hide or what, but I did not have the intention of purposely sharing with my other friends that I’m drove up to Cameron with my sister pals…
Or rather, to put it in another clearer way, it just gave me a very unsettling feeling that when you did not share a piece of information of your life personally with someone, or via your own FB updates, and yet that someone knows – from another source.. and started questioning you about it..
What happened and where did that little space of privacy go to?
Which brings me to another point.
Nan is MY friend. A, B, C, D, E, F & G are MY friends. Nan met SOME of them only, the most, once or twice, through me.
And I shall assume that she dun even have A, B, C, D, E, F & G’s phone numbers, email addies, or even spoke more than 10 sentences with each other, what have you.
So, are A, B, C, D, E, F & G even considered friends of Nan’s?
And if not, why are they friends on FB and even have the time to go see/snoop around, looking at photos or updates of people you aren’t even close to?
No, don’t get me wrong.
I’m perfectly fine with them getting acquainted with one another and being friends on FB, and even upgraded the relationship from being just acquaintances to friends in real life, what have you.
But I honestly just find it “too effort” that people take the effort to go search online for other second-degree friends and request to be added – and the “weird” part is, the 2 may just be acquaintances for the longest time or hear each other names via me, and are not really friends to begin with…
It all just became a game of collecting names in your online account. And what’s the point in this?
And yet, the best part is, one could still go “kay poh” about an acquaintance’s life – via FB updates (notwithstanding the part if one is really into that person as a love interest or really want the person as a friend for whatever reasons)
And also, it just struck me that why is it that my friends know the names of my circle of other friends; yet, I don’t know my friends’ other circle of friends?
But, of course, I guessed partly, it might be me who did not make any effort to be interested and get to know my friends’ other circle of friends…
Hmm… now that I wrote to here, I also dunno what is the point I am trying to make here in the first place…
****
And to make things worse for myself…
Butter just msn-ed me excitedly with a “Hey babe!” and cos I was still trying hard to re-arrange my thots and figure the point I am trying to make here and phrase it more succinctly, I carelessly replied with a “?”…
To my total shock, she actually dismissed it off as a super unfriendly reply.. and then, her subsequent replies seemed angry and pissed – even after I tried to lighten the situation with “Orh, then I answer you now with a ‘hey babe!’”.
Her reply was “Next time you reply with a ‘?’, I’m not going to say anything anymore.”
HUH???
Honestly, if the images in the cartoons really exist, you could really see many question marks hanging above my head…
And when I explained that I was busy (without going into details) and asked her what’s up, she decided not to share with whatever she intended to share with me in the 1st place with a curt “nvm.”. “Nothing.” And finally, “”Go be bz then.”
And all because of a “Question mark”…
… …
****
On another note, I forgot how much I enjoy reading. Be it trash magazines, fiction stories, marketing journals, branding books, etc... Spent almost the whole afternoon at the national library last Saturday reading and totally loving it.
Love the reading. Love the time to me and myself, with no other distraction.
Apart from the fact that there was this stoopid guy who sat beside me, and somehow, slowly invaded into my sofa space with his bag, laptop and books. But I think my stern stare and irritated look sent the message loud and clear that he picked up his stuff and left.
Borrowed a branding book back home and could not put it down for the past few days. Read it on the train. Read it before I sleep these days... It's great.
I should do this more often... I really should.
***
This afternoon, for dunno-what reason, while shopping with my cousins, chit-chatting, happy and all, a very uneasy feeling suddenly hit me, out from nowhere, and I actually trembled for that split second. And the first thought that came to me was him.
I hope and pray things are alright.
It will be alright.
Had dinner with Nancy last night, and when she asked me casually what I’ve been busy with for the past month or so…
Me: The usual.. but I’ve been feeling very tired for the longest time, and having the nagging feeling that I haven’t had time for myself for a long long time… and I need that.
Nan: You keep going out with A & B? Meeting them weekly?
Me: No.
Nan: Then? Why no time for yourself? Why so busy? Or you keep meeting C? Or is it D? E, F or G?
And so, she started to list all the names I dropped during our past conversations (gosh.. she does have a good memory…) I perfectly understood that she meant well and expressing concern (which I do appreciate) when she tried to probe further; but on the other hand, I felt I was being interrogated. And part of me was wondering – why do I need to tell you who I’ve been frequently meeting or what?
Despite my repetitive “NO” answer, she, being her usual inquisitive self, did not really catch the subtle hint that I wanted her to stop probing there and then.
To prevent her from guessing further, I simply told her not to guess or ask anymore, cos I could not remember (which was true… , or at least, it’s not at the tip of my fingertips what I did for the past week or who I met.. and I’m not interested, and too lazy, to think, think, think just to satisfy her inquisitive appetite…)
But from this incident, something just suddenly got me thinking…
She could just start to list names of some of MY friends, regardless whether she really knows them or not… And she knows what I’ve been up to randomly, via some of my friends’ FB updates (who have also added her as friend. Or I dunno who add who..) And honestly, and dun ask me why, but for whatever reasons, I’m not exactly comfortable with that.
Take for example, she just went – You and Serene drove all of you up to Cameron?! You dare to drive?? Whose car did you drive? And all those questions just totally caught me off guard.
Not that I have anything to hide or what, but I did not have the intention of purposely sharing with my other friends that I’m drove up to Cameron with my sister pals…
Or rather, to put it in another clearer way, it just gave me a very unsettling feeling that when you did not share a piece of information of your life personally with someone, or via your own FB updates, and yet that someone knows – from another source.. and started questioning you about it..
What happened and where did that little space of privacy go to?
Which brings me to another point.
Nan is MY friend. A, B, C, D, E, F & G are MY friends. Nan met SOME of them only, the most, once or twice, through me.
And I shall assume that she dun even have A, B, C, D, E, F & G’s phone numbers, email addies, or even spoke more than 10 sentences with each other, what have you.
So, are A, B, C, D, E, F & G even considered friends of Nan’s?
And if not, why are they friends on FB and even have the time to go see/snoop around, looking at photos or updates of people you aren’t even close to?
No, don’t get me wrong.
I’m perfectly fine with them getting acquainted with one another and being friends on FB, and even upgraded the relationship from being just acquaintances to friends in real life, what have you.
But I honestly just find it “too effort” that people take the effort to go search online for other second-degree friends and request to be added – and the “weird” part is, the 2 may just be acquaintances for the longest time or hear each other names via me, and are not really friends to begin with…
It all just became a game of collecting names in your online account. And what’s the point in this?
And yet, the best part is, one could still go “kay poh” about an acquaintance’s life – via FB updates (notwithstanding the part if one is really into that person as a love interest or really want the person as a friend for whatever reasons)
And also, it just struck me that why is it that my friends know the names of my circle of other friends; yet, I don’t know my friends’ other circle of friends?
But, of course, I guessed partly, it might be me who did not make any effort to be interested and get to know my friends’ other circle of friends…
Hmm… now that I wrote to here, I also dunno what is the point I am trying to make here in the first place…
****
And to make things worse for myself…
Butter just msn-ed me excitedly with a “Hey babe!” and cos I was still trying hard to re-arrange my thots and figure the point I am trying to make here and phrase it more succinctly, I carelessly replied with a “?”…
To my total shock, she actually dismissed it off as a super unfriendly reply.. and then, her subsequent replies seemed angry and pissed – even after I tried to lighten the situation with “Orh, then I answer you now with a ‘hey babe!’”.
Her reply was “Next time you reply with a ‘?’, I’m not going to say anything anymore.”
HUH???
Honestly, if the images in the cartoons really exist, you could really see many question marks hanging above my head…
And when I explained that I was busy (without going into details) and asked her what’s up, she decided not to share with whatever she intended to share with me in the 1st place with a curt “nvm.”. “Nothing.” And finally, “”Go be bz then.”
And all because of a “Question mark”…
… …
****
On another note, I forgot how much I enjoy reading. Be it trash magazines, fiction stories, marketing journals, branding books, etc... Spent almost the whole afternoon at the national library last Saturday reading and totally loving it.
Love the reading. Love the time to me and myself, with no other distraction.
Apart from the fact that there was this stoopid guy who sat beside me, and somehow, slowly invaded into my sofa space with his bag, laptop and books. But I think my stern stare and irritated look sent the message loud and clear that he picked up his stuff and left.
Borrowed a branding book back home and could not put it down for the past few days. Read it on the train. Read it before I sleep these days... It's great.
I should do this more often... I really should.
***
This afternoon, for dunno-what reason, while shopping with my cousins, chit-chatting, happy and all, a very uneasy feeling suddenly hit me, out from nowhere, and I actually trembled for that split second. And the first thought that came to me was him.
I hope and pray things are alright.
It will be alright.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Me minus you equals blue
Love this song the first time I heard it years back... Tried to find the MP3 in vain.. Gave up..
Heard it on radio again today and still love it. (Just goes to show sometimes, not all things change with age...) Tried to find the MP3 again. In vain again. Roped in Bloss to find too. Tough luck. =(
And so, I'll just have to settle for a non-motion obiang photo youtube video...
With all my heart, I pledge my love forever
You've got my word, you and I will always be together
There may be times, we have a disagreement
This love's too strong, to ever let it come between us
I would, I would keep this love alive Oh baby
I would, I would because otherwise
Me minus u equals blue
Can't imagine what I ever do
If it'd ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can't stand the thought of us apart
Like so many hearts hidden in the dark
It will never be me minus u
Each day I learn, a little more about you
Then I know for sure, that I'd never wanna be without you
We're gonna stay so true to this relation
Me without your love is such a sad equation baby
I would, I would keep this love alive Oh baby
I would, I would be cause otherwise
Me minus u equals blue
Can't imagine what I ever do
If it'd ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can't stand the thought of us apart
Like so many hearts hidden in the dark
It'll never be…
What we got can't get much better
I would never change a thing
Baby we're so good together
Then I'll never, never ever want it to be me
Me minus u equals blue
Me minus u equals blue
Can't imagine what I ever do
If it'd ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can't stand the thought of us apart
I want you in my life
I can't be without your love
Me minus u equals blue
Can't imagine what I ever do
If it'd ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can't stand the thought of us apart
I need you here with me
Me - you = blue...
Heard it on radio again today and still love it. (Just goes to show sometimes, not all things change with age...) Tried to find the MP3 again. In vain again. Roped in Bloss to find too. Tough luck. =(
And so, I'll just have to settle for a non-motion obiang photo youtube video...
With all my heart, I pledge my love forever
You've got my word, you and I will always be together
There may be times, we have a disagreement
This love's too strong, to ever let it come between us
I would, I would keep this love alive Oh baby
I would, I would because otherwise
Me minus u equals blue
Can't imagine what I ever do
If it'd ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can't stand the thought of us apart
Like so many hearts hidden in the dark
It will never be me minus u
Each day I learn, a little more about you
Then I know for sure, that I'd never wanna be without you
We're gonna stay so true to this relation
Me without your love is such a sad equation baby
I would, I would keep this love alive Oh baby
I would, I would be cause otherwise
Me minus u equals blue
Can't imagine what I ever do
If it'd ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can't stand the thought of us apart
Like so many hearts hidden in the dark
It'll never be…
What we got can't get much better
I would never change a thing
Baby we're so good together
Then I'll never, never ever want it to be me
Me minus u equals blue
Me minus u equals blue
Can't imagine what I ever do
If it'd ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can't stand the thought of us apart
I want you in my life
I can't be without your love
Me minus u equals blue
Can't imagine what I ever do
If it'd ever came to
Me minus u equals blue
I can't stand the thought of us apart
I need you here with me
Me - you = blue...
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Rawa Island ~ 15-17 May 2009
This entry is a bit late... Realised I did not blog about my other trips after Phnom Penh... So here goes...
Phnom Penh in April and Rawa in May...
The trip to Rawa was really one of the most enjoyable and unforgettable trips that I had so far ... Simply because it is really just an island, and you feel that you are really on a relaxed holiday, away from the hustle and bustle of city life and air/water pollution...
And more importantly, without any other distractions, like TV (you know what a TV addict I am...), computer (though the guys brought along a laptop, which we used to watch some... erm.. crappy movies...) and mobile phone.. (I think apart from two smses from a fren who questioned why I was overseas with the Swine Flu alert everywhere, and a couple of sms-es from him, I'm glad my phone stayed quiet most of the time.)
The sky was blue. The water was blue. Or rather, the water was so clear that you could actually see fishes swimming - even when I did not go snorkelling with the rest.
Not to mention, Jenny and the guys were fun company. I'm so glad Jenny asked me along for the trip (think she guessed I needed one...), and I'm so glad I agreed.
The one thing I enjoy travelling with Jenny is I can just be quiet and be in my own world, and she leaves me in it, without nudging/nagging/whining at me to join them for the activities or whatsoever, and not be offended that I needed some solitude time.
Just like how I was totally zonked out on the 1st night when we reached and all I wanted to do then was to shower and retire back to the room to zzz like a piggie. And Jenny had to "explain" to the guys to let me be, and so, the three of them played games in the other room. Then again, in the end, I was drifting in and out of sleep because I could hear them laughing and chatting so clearly! hahaha...
Or during our Bintan trip quite some years back, when for some reason, the flu bug acted up and I just had to pop the medicine and immediately retire to bed at 8 pm, leaving her in the room to do some leisure reading...
But honestly, I seriously appreciate that. I reckon if i were with any other friends, I would ultimately be obliging (unwillingly) and "dong" through the night until everyone decided to call it a day.
Really enjoyed the trip and look forward to going there again!
Oh, and another thing, I absolutely enjoyed the 200km/hr ride! Woohoo! hahaha..
First day when we arrived at the sunny island!
Phnom Penh in April and Rawa in May...
The trip to Rawa was really one of the most enjoyable and unforgettable trips that I had so far ... Simply because it is really just an island, and you feel that you are really on a relaxed holiday, away from the hustle and bustle of city life and air/water pollution...
And more importantly, without any other distractions, like TV (you know what a TV addict I am...), computer (though the guys brought along a laptop, which we used to watch some... erm.. crappy movies...) and mobile phone.. (I think apart from two smses from a fren who questioned why I was overseas with the Swine Flu alert everywhere, and a couple of sms-es from him, I'm glad my phone stayed quiet most of the time.)
The sky was blue. The water was blue. Or rather, the water was so clear that you could actually see fishes swimming - even when I did not go snorkelling with the rest.
Not to mention, Jenny and the guys were fun company. I'm so glad Jenny asked me along for the trip (think she guessed I needed one...), and I'm so glad I agreed.
The one thing I enjoy travelling with Jenny is I can just be quiet and be in my own world, and she leaves me in it, without nudging/nagging/whining at me to join them for the activities or whatsoever, and not be offended that I needed some solitude time.
Just like how I was totally zonked out on the 1st night when we reached and all I wanted to do then was to shower and retire back to the room to zzz like a piggie. And Jenny had to "explain" to the guys to let me be, and so, the three of them played games in the other room. Then again, in the end, I was drifting in and out of sleep because I could hear them laughing and chatting so clearly! hahaha...
Or during our Bintan trip quite some years back, when for some reason, the flu bug acted up and I just had to pop the medicine and immediately retire to bed at 8 pm, leaving her in the room to do some leisure reading...
But honestly, I seriously appreciate that. I reckon if i were with any other friends, I would ultimately be obliging (unwillingly) and "dong" through the night until everyone decided to call it a day.
Really enjoyed the trip and look forward to going there again!
Oh, and another thing, I absolutely enjoyed the 200km/hr ride! Woohoo! hahaha..
First day when we arrived at the sunny island!
Jump! x 1
See how clear the water is!!
Babes! haha!