Marching into Year 2009 with bravado!

That’s what Bloss said after our first heavy conversation on the first day of Year 2009. She asked if I were to die within the next hour, what would be my greatest regret?

I told her I don’t know. Because at the moment when she asked the question, I knew that if I were to die within the next hour, my loved ones would be around with me. That’s enough.

She also said the same thing – that she does not think that she has any. Maybe worries (牵挂) but not regrets. I guess she’s right.

I told her that I THINK I do not have any regrets – simply because I know that if I were to live my life all over again, I would still walk down the very same path.

That is, given my mental, emotional and physical state, coupled with the external circumstances/factors…

So IF I am very sure I would still choose the same path, I think I should have no regrets to talk about…

Granted, some of the choices/decisions I made during the past years had not been exactly easy. In fact, some were really tough. Very tough. But I guess it’s all part of growing up, or growing old/wiser, for that matter.

Year 2009 has been said by many that it is going to be a tough year – when all we see in papers every day are the terms including “economic downturn”, “recession”, “job losses” and “pay cut”, among others.

But I guess having a positive and optimistic mindset is important. I told Butter earlier to mix more with people who are cheerful and happy-go-lucky – so that she can benefit from all the positive vibes.

Guess there were just too many negative vibes for the past year, and it affected everyone around you, which, in turn, will also affect yourself. It’s one whole cycle, or karma…

I had wanted to stay home for a quiet New Year – more so to do some reflection… but in the end, I guessed I had pushed myself too hard for the past few weeks with all the late nights and booze… (I’m sure Bloss and Butter would agree, having exclaimed I was possessed by an alien and had behaved a bit abnormally) When I reached home yesterday and sat in my favourite couch, I actually dozed off a couple of times in front of the TV…

But I did catch some live fireworks! From Malaysia, that is. I forgot I could view fireworks from home since I could see Johor from my window… And it’s quite sweet – some of the fireworks were heart shaped! Awwww…

Oh well, whether I like it or not, Year 2009 is here and a new year is always said to signify a brand new start. So here’s CHEERS to a brand new start and hope/pray for the very best in all the things that I am (and you are) going to venture into!

Hip Hip Hooray!!!!