Tired

Heard <<我等到花兒也謝了>> on radio… and it actually gave me goose bumps ~ especially the first verse when there wasn’t much music in the background.

He’s really not given the title of 歌神 for nothing. His voice is damn “powderful” lor … **Swoons**

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Anyway, been rather pissed and upset at work these days. And it’s all cos of some moron who kicked a big fuss over ONE LINE I wrote in the internal newsletter.

First, he came to me, brought me to the notice board and then shouted at me there and then, questioning me why I changed the copy he gave me. And then went on to question me who gave me the authority to change it? And while raising his voice at me, his ugly scrawny finger was pointing and hitting the notice board so hard that there was a minor “dent”, and the paper in a near-torn state.

And I especially hated it when he did not even give me a second to explain or talk back or actually make sense out of this whole thing, and he walked away! Fish him la...

Followed his secretary back to her table, printed out what he gave me, and honestly, until then, or rather, until now, I still have no idea what the BIG fuss was about.

Asked his girl..

Me: So what’s the difference between what he gave and what I wrote?
Girl: Dunno.
Me: **in my mind** what the Fish!

And then he suddenly appeared from nowhere, and made it loud and clear to me again..

“You owe me an explanation. Your boss owes me an explanation. Ask your boss to COME TO ME AND EXPLAIN.”

And he walked away again!

Pardon me. But if I could really swear there and then, I would have really hurled vulgarities at him and could really kick him in his groin man.

What the fish!

1) There’s no need for him to raise his voice at me. He could have confronted me in a firm and professional way. He could have explained to me why it was wrong. And not just tell me, I’m right. You are wrong and how dare you have the audacity to edit what I gave you.
2) I don’t report to him. He’s not the big boss or the 2nd or 3rd in command anyway. What the hell. And so, why the hell is he raising his voice at me, in a place smacked right in the middle of the company?
3) I really hate it when people walk away, accusing me of something and then don’t even listen to what I have to say – regardless of whether you agree with me or not. Please lor, this is a work place and not your home where you can just throw tantrums and walk away, without listening what others have to say. Still don’t understand how could such attitude happen in a work place, especially with someone in the senior management?

To cut long story short, it was such a huge matter to that moron that he asked his girl to come arrange a meeting with me and boss. Asked us when we are free – to which my boss said – no, we are not free. No time.

And he ultimately had no choice but to walk to my boss’ workstation, and oh man, it was another session of heated “argument”. But of course, he was so soft this time, I couldn’t hear him at all. But my boss managed to stay firm to what we wrote and I think it drove him nuts.

Apparently, when big boss came back, he complained to him about us. And then my boss was being called in for a “chit chat” session. And God knows what and how he painted the whole picture, big boss had the impression that the “mistake” I made was communicated to the media. When my boss told him it was only a one-liner in our internal newsletter, big boss only uttered an “Oh…”

What actually got me very upset was how big boss tried to broach the subject with boss… Apparently, he broached the subject by telling my boss that maybe next time, on what ever matters, she could approach to the HODs and talk to them personally, instead of getting me to talk to them.

What the fish!!

1) I rarely approached the moron directly since I know he has such a big ego that he talks only to the heads, that I always passed message via his secretary.
2) And for this matter, he was the one who came to me and gave me a lecture mah. Not me.
3) If I really have a communication problem, why is it that I have no problems with the rest of the HODs and are on good terms with a couple of them?

And that was when the light bulb lit with boss and she knew straight away it was this moron who complained to big boss, and that’s how all the things came to light.

Even though boss managed to shoot all the false accusations down, and backed me up, I just feel damn pissed. Besides, I heard the session between boss and big boss from boss herself. Call me paranoid but how would I know how true it is or rather, what other things big boss have said but boss chose to keep it from me?

Think my boss caught my face slowly turning blacker and blacker, and she told me to cool it and said so long as we know what we are doing, it’s OK. There’s no need to get so angry.

And then, I kept bumping into him in office today. Tried to control myself to not look at him and just look straight, head up; otherwise, I think I would really kick him in his arse ~ literally.

He sent something to my boss, copied big boss and me today. Though there were words like “Thank you”, his tone was condescending. “I expect you to bla la bla. You are to bla la bla.” And his last line was something along the line tat he expects direct communication from my boss from now on. Which I read between the lines to warn me to stay clear from and out of his way from now on.

So be it.

I don’t even want to communicate with his girl now. His girl called me twice when I was in meeting today. Rejected the calls. Didn’t even check back, which I usually would. Shall leave this department to my boss.

How idiotic.

And boss had to remind me today that I need to start work soon on the next issue. I wonder if I can just allocate minimal space to this department.

Oh, on another note. Someone actually vandalized the photos of the staff being featured in this issue. Drew all over her face. Just find it hard to believe such things still exist in the corporate world, where everyone’s supposed to be mature working adults.

Showed my boss, who showed big boss. Saw big boss shake his head and crushed the paper immediately, with his face turning solemn.

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I did my part in leaving him alone for two weeks and only tried to check with him how things are at home now, and all I got in reply was a “Still been very busy with many stuff”. Fine ~ so blatant that his many stuffs don’t include me, nor sharing with me nor updating me.

Oh well, I’m not going to do my part anymore. Enuff of such rubbish. He wants his barang back, he wants to only look for me when he is finally done with his many stuffs and finally has the time, he blardy well just waits until when I have the time and mood.

Alright, nonetheless, I pray for his family’s good health.

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Think haven't really stayed home for the whole day on Sundays for the entire August... Tired... Two Sundays went to birthday celes. One Sunday went to two tuition lessons. One Sunday went to some event.

I want my Sundays back. MY Sundays. Just for myself. So going to block out Sundays... Shall start next week.