A very soothing song (I feel la) which I accidentally came across while doing some aimless surfing... quite like the melody, which could seemingly transport me to times when the days seem to be more carefree... Dunno why - I actually think of ... 林青霞 and Qing Han! The 1980's!
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I've frens asking me why I havent been blogging lately... Honestly, I dunno. I dunno what to blog. No inspiration to write. I guess I'm just living each day as it is. So there's nothing spectacular/peculiar/what have you to blog about, I guess.
I'm sick of always blogging about how lost or sad or miserable I am or how much I miss so and so. Paul once said we shld try to always blog about happy things. Record happy things, instead of sad. And I read somewhere, the article said the same thing too... And by blogging happier incidents, sooner or later, you will become a happier person too...
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Just had the mid-year review which some of you might have known and knew how uptight, tense and nervous I was prior to my review. Weird - the review turned out to be better than I expected. Boss said she could see my old self coming back and that my soul seems to be back at work for the past half year, though she adds that she noes I dun seem to be at my peak yet, and she's looking forward to that. But of course, I still have to think of how to fulfil my four major objectives - which, erm... none of it has been fulfilled yet! Darn...
Nonetheless, her comments came as a surprise, because I feel I am still behaving like an aimless zombie at work, living in my own world, fretting over personal problems.
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Told butter I am consciously making an effort to re-arrange my whole life all over again. And though she claims that my conscious efforts dun gel with my thoughts, at least I know i am taking baby steps to try. It's very difficult but I'm trying. I consider more than twice now before I feel or think I wan do something - which, I dunno if being too rational and conscientiously allowing my head to take over my heart is a good or bad thing. But at least, I know I am slowly getting back in control of my life. Then again, I dunno how long this "rationality" can last. But we'll see.
There are still many things (and his things) lying around in my room, and even my HP and MP3 and some of the stuff I use on a daily basis, which cruelly serve as reminders.
But I guess, again, rationality is the way to go. I used to be able to do it. So I'm sure I can do it again. :)
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And "horrors of all horrors", I just realised two nights ago - when J asked me about my previous embdedded song -- that he has been randomly reading my blog! Oh well... but i've nothing to hide from you anyway. Stalker! =p But i'm glad to chat with him again, though he always ends up making me feeling stressed by asking me serious questions like "where do i think my career is heading?", and "have I ever seriously thought of how to increase my $$", and "where do i think i stand among my uni-mates in terms of career advancement, $$, etc"... Bleah!
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